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teleios rp for Sarah; backdated
Mar. 15th, 2015 12:00 pmJeremy sits on the bed in the room that Sarah and Jeremy have shared for weeks, months now. They've shared a room or a living space for over a year, and being in it now and knowing what he is going to say, it tears him apart to think of it. His stomach twists terribly. It's not normal nausea. It's something that burns as it twists, and it's not from the alcohol, which he couldn't drink enough of to get Vicki's words out of his head about what happened in another universe. At the start of his stay in Chicago, he'd just recovered from one death (the longest one of just a an hour tops maybe), and he wondered if he wasn't supposed to die then and there. Finding out he dies again for a long, long time. Finding out his sister dies and becomes a vampire and loses her humanity because he dies-- He doesn't know how to process that. How the fuck does anyone process that?
And he doesn't know how to do this. He doesn't know how he is going to say that he's moving out even if he was planning on doing it before Vicki told him anything, because he can sense she needs it.
The moment he reached out for Sarah and she pulled away (something that has never happened before, he's never made her feel that way before), he knew. He knew he'd destroyed something so-- so beautiful, and it's that moment that stays with him and how he can sense her need still for space. Jeremy knew. He knows her so utterly and completely well. Better than he's ever known anyone before, better than he knows himself, and he can tell she needs space, space from him, space from his betrayal, space from all of it. Maybe finding out what he did about the world that he left behind so many years ago, it's what reminded him... what he is. And he loves her too much to-- He loves her too much to not help make sure she gets what she needs especially after everything that he's done.
It doesn't mean it's easy though. He doesn't really know how he's going to get the words out when it feels like his stomach is on fire, and there's panic in his chest, and he doesn't understand anything anymore, but he's sitting and waiting for her.
And he doesn't know how to do this. He doesn't know how he is going to say that he's moving out even if he was planning on doing it before Vicki told him anything, because he can sense she needs it.
The moment he reached out for Sarah and she pulled away (something that has never happened before, he's never made her feel that way before), he knew. He knew he'd destroyed something so-- so beautiful, and it's that moment that stays with him and how he can sense her need still for space. Jeremy knew. He knows her so utterly and completely well. Better than he's ever known anyone before, better than he knows himself, and he can tell she needs space, space from him, space from his betrayal, space from all of it. Maybe finding out what he did about the world that he left behind so many years ago, it's what reminded him... what he is. And he loves her too much to-- He loves her too much to not help make sure she gets what she needs especially after everything that he's done.
It doesn't mean it's easy though. He doesn't really know how he's going to get the words out when it feels like his stomach is on fire, and there's panic in his chest, and he doesn't understand anything anymore, but he's sitting and waiting for her.
