It hurts and makes things that much more difficult that he understands.
Sarah never doubted he would. Jeremy understands her better than she understands herself sometimes, and because his choices have been taken away, he knows the importance of them - he has never, ever given her anything short of the freedom to make her own decisions, whatever they end up meaning. Her cheeks are scalding wet, and her heart feels heavier than it did only minutes ago. "It's not - " her voice cuts off, and then she grows very still. She really wishes she was better at words sometimes.
"It's not that I need you to go away. It's that I really - I really need to do this on my own."
Jeremy going to Thor for himself was sort of a wake-up call. He may not feel confident about his choices right now, but at least he made a choice. Sarah has been too guarded and fearful, to wracked by mistrust to do anything about her situation at all, despite being completely certain she is not ready to die.
This is her body and her life and that means it's on her. She knows he's felt the weight of it, wanted a favor for her first and foremost, until she made him promise not to. He's already lost so much, that she can't be something else he feels helpless to protect and save. She can't.
"Spring is gonna come soon and we'll - we'll need to move anyway."
They had different rooming accommodations in the beginning.
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Sarah never doubted he would. Jeremy understands her better than she understands herself sometimes, and because his choices have been taken away, he knows the importance of them - he has never, ever given her anything short of the freedom to make her own decisions, whatever they end up meaning. Her cheeks are scalding wet, and her heart feels heavier than it did only minutes ago. "It's not - " her voice cuts off, and then she grows very still. She really wishes she was better at words sometimes.
"It's not that I need you to go away. It's that I really - I really need to do this on my own."
Jeremy going to Thor for himself was sort of a wake-up call. He may not feel confident about his choices right now, but at least he made a choice. Sarah has been too guarded and fearful, to wracked by mistrust to do anything about her situation at all, despite being completely certain she is not ready to die.
This is her body and her life and that means it's on her. She knows he's felt the weight of it, wanted a favor for her first and foremost, until she made him promise not to. He's already lost so much, that she can't be something else he feels helpless to protect and save. She can't.
"Spring is gonna come soon and we'll - we'll need to move anyway."
They had different rooming accommodations in the beginning.