Jeremy has made terrible choices, and he is the reason why they're sitting here now because of everything. There's no going around that, and it's something he is going to live with for the rest of his life. He doesn't know how people get past destroying things. His eyes burn as he stares down at his hands, and he shakes his head, swallowing thickly.
He slides his hand over his face, fighting tears again, because he would take it back if he could but he can't. They don't want different things. They never did. He wanted everything they dreamed about, everything they wanted together. There's the cabin, and there's the future and all of their dreams.
The fight with the tears fails, and he slides a hand over his face to try to wipe them away.
"I hate that stupid choice." It's said finally in an aching voice. "I'm sorry for everything, Sarah." He's so goddamn sorry even if it doesn't change anything, even if it doesn't change... anything. He swallows thickly. "I know you need to make a choice, and I'm-- You're really smart to really think about it and do it slowly and think about what you need and what you want. I know you'll make the choice that's right for you."
She will. He has been so terrified of her dying, of her losing her mind, terrified of it because he loves her so much, but it's still her choice. It's her body. It's her life. It's who she is.
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Jeremy has made terrible choices, and he is the reason why they're sitting here now because of everything. There's no going around that, and it's something he is going to live with for the rest of his life. He doesn't know how people get past destroying things. His eyes burn as he stares down at his hands, and he shakes his head, swallowing thickly.
He slides his hand over his face, fighting tears again, because he would take it back if he could but he can't. They don't want different things. They never did. He wanted everything they dreamed about, everything they wanted together. There's the cabin, and there's the future and all of their dreams.
The fight with the tears fails, and he slides a hand over his face to try to wipe them away.
"I hate that stupid choice." It's said finally in an aching voice. "I'm sorry for everything, Sarah." He's so goddamn sorry even if it doesn't change anything, even if it doesn't change... anything. He swallows thickly. "I know you need to make a choice, and I'm-- You're really smart to really think about it and do it slowly and think about what you need and what you want. I know you'll make the choice that's right for you."
She will. He has been so terrified of her dying, of her losing her mind, terrified of it because he loves her so much, but it's still her choice. It's her body. It's her life. It's who she is.